You’re Still a Good Dad
Have you ever had a day in which nothing went wrong, you participated in fun activities and associated with people you love, and watched a show you’ve been waiting to release for a long time, and yet had one of the worst days ever? Hi. Today was that day for me. I knew in my head that it was a good day. I knew we were having fun—and I did have fun—and that it was a day in which I could relax and enjoy some free time with my family. Despite knowing that, I couldn’t force the fun all day. During our daytime activity with the kids—swimming—I shut down after an hour or so and had no desire to swim any longer. Before that, I was laughing and playing with my kids. Then, suddenly, the good feelings left and I was left a hollow shell. There was no warning, no indication that the darkness of depression was about to once again consume me. And so, despite knowing there was nothing to keep me from having a good time, I sat around and watched my family have fun. I told my w...